tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-75843731526487194962024-03-18T03:32:20.528-04:00How goes it...musings, wonders, love, life, exploration, discoveries, epiphanies of a curious mind...Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03012878273449933821noreply@blogger.comBlogger188125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7584373152648719496.post-77208227689719343542018-08-11T19:54:00.000-04:002018-08-11T19:54:39.766-04:00Bucket ListThere are a few things I would love to accomplish in life. They say purpose gives one meaning in life. I seek to find my purpose in every area of life that I intend to engage fully in. It has always been my goal to find fulfillment in my work, studies, and relationships. I am glad to say that I finally accepted the call to excellence and was inducted into the Omega Gamma Chapter of Sigma Theta Tau International. For many, it may not be a big deal but to me, it felt amazing! I was proud to be among the many who have been invited to join STTI.<br />
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My cousin was the first in our family to pave the way. I have also had many mentors and preceptors who have embodied what amazing Nursing leadership looks like. One of my favorite preceptors was Charmaine. She was patient and kind and did not make me feel like an idiot. They say Nurses eat their young and she never made me feel like I would get swallowed up by the profession. Compassion and kindness go a long way to inspire others to extend the same humanity to others. I currently have another co-worker who is always soft-spoken and gentle with the people she works with. Other people in leadership who have inspired me include Mary Aboagye and Comfort Nyameba Poku. There are many trailblazers I aspire to be like. It is amazing to not live for applause but every now and then, it sure feels good.<br />
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The invitation has been sent and I have accepted. May I thirst for excellence in this field as I seek to serve the people who are placed in my charge daily.<br />
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#STTI #SigmaNursing #MSN #LeadershipEducationAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03012878273449933821noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7584373152648719496.post-3275529567635888692017-06-19T23:48:00.000-04:002017-06-19T23:48:04.392-04:00LIFEI have tried to put my thoughts into words a few times in the last few years. Blogging used to be such an outlet until I found KDrama. I must say the escape has been quite welcoming but I might have lost my creative writing in there. Over the last few years, blogging has become some people's way of making a living. It has become very commercialized to the extent that it is difficult to discern what is paid content from original and sincere opinions.<br />
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I long for the days when it wasn't so, but who am I kidding? Making a living out of a hobby is pretty brilliant, indeed!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03012878273449933821noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7584373152648719496.post-30938510813712976892015-05-21T23:53:00.001-04:002015-05-21T23:53:48.707-04:00Do people still blog?I have not blogged In So long that the very thought of writing my thoughts down here seems a little strange. There is so much to say yet so little time to get all the thoughts running through my head together. I started a new job but I do miss interacting with patients at times especially face to face. My kids are growing and getting a little independent.Some days , I wish they would remain little and other days, I wish they were in college already! Being an adult keeps getting more and more challenging! There are days when I just don't want to 'adult'. May I just take a minute to be? No? Alas! Life of a mama. <div><br></div><div>I wish I could commit to writing more often but life goes on and so must I, outside of the blogosphere. God bless </div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03012878273449933821noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7584373152648719496.post-8773293092419593572014-07-30T12:41:00.000-04:002014-07-30T12:41:33.934-04:00latelySo am I an idealist or just plain delusional? I choose gratitude and refuse to feed into misery because misery does love company. Call me crazy but focusing on the positives and being thankful has proven to be a lot more beneficial to my overall well being than the opposite. I have had my fair share of pain and I struggle with it on a constant basis to be grateful in life but God has been good through it all. Even in the times when my vision is tunneled and all I visualize is the distraction and uncertainty and heartache.<br />
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Why do people refuse to see that gratitude is the mark of maturity in several areas of life? Why do people get mad when others remain positive no matter their circumstances? Oh wait, misery loves company! I am sure it is quite annoying to see other people's lives as perfect while your's remains drab, boring and full of pain but for the love of all that is good, please don't compare your life to another's. You do not know their struggle or hassle. You only see a snippet of a person's life online and it is mostly just the good that is put out there. Don't believe the hollywood hype either. Real life is full of highs and lows and no situation is permanent. If you're down right now, dust yourself and get back up. Keep pressing on. Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03012878273449933821noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7584373152648719496.post-28890645801808976192014-02-13T06:10:00.001-05:002014-02-13T06:10:29.582-05:00these days and timesIt's been increasingly difficult to find time to take a shower let alone sit and write a blog post. Who knew having two kids under three could be such a challenge! As I always say, I have so much respect and appreciation for my parents after becoming one myself. Granted they had a lot of extended family to help but it is still not an easy task. Parenting requires a lot of grace and I need more than I can handle :)<br />
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So far this year has been full of downs. First Kyle got pneumonia, then double ear infection and keeps getting sick at daycare partly because he mouths everything and his immune system is apparently not strong enough so he keeps getting everyone's germs. Grrr... Then there's the joys of living in the frozen tundra and having schools and daycares close several times so one of us has to miss work and stay home. Who's going to be paying for these hospital bills when we can't even work a full week without all these interruptions? Oh and I got in an accident just when I thought things were looking up finally! Hahaha... God must have had a good laugh :-)<br />
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Truth is, I know nothing I do or don't do will separate me from the love of God but lately I've been feeling a little distant. I've not prayed as much. The few times I string a sentence together, it always seems like a petition or request. I feel emotionally tired, drained, physically weak, mentally challenged and just all around frustrated. There are days when I want to look up and shake my fist at God and then I am reminded of the book of Job! Who am I to be questioning the almighty when I was not present as He laid the foundations for this earth?<br />
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For now, I am going to take it each day at a time. Some days are full of victories and others are not. I remember praying<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=proverbs+30+%3A7-9&version=NIV" target="_blank"> the prayer of Agur</a> and it has been such a reality in my life. It really is true that if you ask to be in God's will, you had better make sure that you're ready for it or the reality of His will concerning your life will put you in total and complete shock. <br />
Lord grant me more grace to live for YouAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03012878273449933821noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7584373152648719496.post-52018298795817721612013-11-27T15:21:00.001-05:002013-11-27T15:34:58.456-05:00Stationery Card<div class="sflyProductPreviewWidget" style="height: 494px; width: 425px;">
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03012878273449933821noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7584373152648719496.post-910799863660314822013-10-29T19:38:00.003-04:002013-10-29T22:53:35.357-04:00Where did the year goMy blogging has become so sporadic that sometimes I wonder if anyone follows this blog anymore or if my story impacts anyone's life at all. That's quite alright because writing is a creative outlet for me and not my whole life. It allows me to take an inventory of what is going on in my life and gives me the ability to sit back and figure out what I'm doing wrong or right. There is some comfort in knowing that. That said, I wish I could blog more often but if you follow me on <a href="http://web.stagram.com/n/missmaxy" target="_blank">instagram</a> or are my friend on facebook, you'd know we have a new addition to our family tree. It gives me much joy and I am grateful to God for all His provision. That'll have to be a whole other blog post for another day.<br />
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So I am pondering over going back to work and putting my kids in daycare. Has anyone struggled with this? It kind of breaks my heart a little :-( I need more grace! Parenting a high needs toddler and a newborn is no joke. I have also felt a little stagnant in my relationship with God lately. Moving and all these changes have made it difficult to commit to a church. I love the African church family I have visited here in MN so far but I also yearn for something more. NOT something similar to my church experience in Michigan per se, but a deeper understanding and fellowshipping with other believers would be amazing. Torn!<br />
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Anyways, I hope everyone's year is going great. I celebrated another birthday and hopefully I am wiser :-) God Bless!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03012878273449933821noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7584373152648719496.post-51923310942977618832013-08-18T22:39:00.000-04:002013-08-18T22:39:03.286-04:00UhmWowsers! It'e been another century since I blogged. Being a mama is taking it's toll I tell ya! I've moved again and amidst a few wistful emotional moments, I think I have handled it pretty well. So we're in a new state, new city... we have to make new friends,find a new church, meet new coworkers and colleagues. Oh dear Lord, do have mercy! I must say it's going pretty well so far. The worst part for me is finding new healthcare providers that I can trust. Y'all say a prayer for us!<br />
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In all of the chaos of setting up house, I have learned that God is faithful. He's been with us through it all. For me especially, I acknowledge that nothing in my life is possible without God's grace and faithfulness. Just the other day I was sharing with my dad what a toll my son's health issues has taken on my faith without even realizing it. You see, sometimes we lose sight of the hereafter when all we see is the chaos of now. I am slowly getting back up to that point where I am so in tune with God and what direction He has for my life. Through my unfaithfulness, He still remains sovereign! Thank You Jesus.<br />
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Do say a prayer for my family when you get a minute... the prayers of the righteous availeth much indeed :-)Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03012878273449933821noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7584373152648719496.post-48847949894267733602013-05-20T14:40:00.000-04:002013-05-20T14:41:22.279-04:00The "Why"My husband graduated from business school this past weekend. So ladies and gentlemen, I have a proud Baylor Business MBA holder under my roof. I am quite excited for the next chapter of our lives. We got together with a couple different families to celebrate the accomplishments of our loved ones and it was during of these encounters that the inspiration for this post was coined up.<br />
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There was discussions on an inspirational piece of literature that talks about finding one's "why" in life. This can be the reason for your existence, the reason why you've made certain decisions or are going through a certain situation. I guess finding this "why" gives a purpose to a person's life. It got me thinking about my life. In the last few years I have reflected on many "whys" without a clear answer.<br />
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The thing is, in a way, if I knew all the whys in every situation, then my vision will be somewhat distorted and myopic. I somehow need the uncertainties in life in order to see the bigger picture or keep my focus on this above and not focus on just this earthly view. All I can do is do my very best with whatever situation I find myself in. I could explore all the whys to the point of exhaustion and still be back at square one. If I am doing my best, however, then I can be rest assured that He who holds the future will someway, somehow, crown my effort with success.<br />
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I don't want to take away from those in hot pursuit of their "why" in life. I am just saying that sometimes, we need to quit the whining, over-analyzing and just be in the moment and ask God to take our hand and lead us home. May you be content with your lot and find that silver lining no matter how dark your cloud might be.<br />
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Congratulations again honey, and to everyone who graduated or will be graduating this year, Job well done!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03012878273449933821noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7584373152648719496.post-18370373707124375332013-03-28T12:56:00.002-04:002013-03-28T12:56:49.784-04:00March MadnessI feel like there are so many changes my family is going through this year that it's made it almost impossible to just sit and put my thoughts into words. God's been good :-) So looking forward to hubby being done with school! I was going through "my little basket of treasures" when I came across and old poem/prayer written about 8 years ago. Enjoy<div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03012878273449933821noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7584373152648719496.post-37166558114658552042013-02-10T22:56:00.004-05:002013-02-10T22:56:58.599-05:00Just as I amI had one of those full on cry, gratitude, thankful filled moments sometime this week and it was utterly and completely out of the blue. See, I don't celebrate Kyle's milestones in the same way other people do because if you had been with me the day I was given his diagnosis, you probably would have balled your eyes out(which I did) and maybe questioned if you should have terminated this miracle. My God has been simply amazing with teaching me to be patient or better yet to be "still and know that He is God". What an awesome God!<br />
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For me, pregnancy was a fearful place to be. I was worried sick. Fear and trepidation gripped me all the way through but I have had to relearn and understand some aspects of who my God is. He has been the healer God, the provider and my victory. Thank you Jesus for your love and grace!<br />
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I want to walk in your shoes<br />
Be it Louboutin, Louis Vuiton or just Antoine.<br />
To feel every pinch, squeeze and discomfort.<br />
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I will learn to strut in your shoes<br />
Be it well calculated steps, graceful sauntering or haphazard jiggling<br />
To endure with you if even for a fleeting moment<br />
Whether sympathy is displayed or empathy is conveyed<br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03012878273449933821noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7584373152648719496.post-23856629470773897502012-12-14T02:35:00.001-05:002012-12-14T02:35:40.661-05:00of childhood dreams and loves lostI used to love you from the deepest core of my being<br />
That sense of wonder at your very existence<br />
The childlike awe at the sound of your laughter<br />
But it breaks my heart to realize I'm losing it...<br />
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I used to love you from my waking hours 'til dark and in my dreams<br />
That place where fairies, unicorns and Santa Claus were real<br />
The innocence of my love in loving you completely<br />
But it saddens my heart, my Love's disappearing...<br />
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How could this be, what do I do?<br />
I can't let go, I only know how to love you<br />
Can shattered dreams be put together?<br />
Would wounded hearts be mended in time?<br />
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How far away is the place I dreamed?<br />
I need to go back to love like never before<br />
Can my love be the beacon that beckons me on?<br />
How do I get there, would you show me the way?<br />
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<span style="line-height: 1.5em;"><span style="color: #333333;"><span style="font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: small;"> </span><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: small;"> </span></span><span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: purple; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: small;">Don't get me wrong. As a young christian woman in my late twenties, the pressure to get married is everywhere. On television, images are painted of 'the perfect couple' who seem to </span></span></span><span style="line-height: 1.5em;"><span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: purple; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: small;">be perpetually in love with each other. They never row, never argue. </span></span></span><span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: purple; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: small;"><span style="line-height: 16.5px;">Instead</span><span style="line-height: 1.5em;"> they spend hours making love and having breakfasts in bed. Seriously? I don't think that is how real life marriages work. Maybe sometimes but not all the time. On radio, you hear songs about 'we belong together' and this and that and it makes one wonder whether being sinlge is part of this thing called normalcy. And least I forget....each time I go to a restaurant, they ask me if I'm there with someone although my sole purpose is to grab a bite and go home, or how about holidays? They are offered with two people in mind. I do sincerely accept what God says in Genesis 2:18. It is surely not good for man to be alone. It is </span><span style="line-height: 16.5px;">psychologically</span><span style="line-height: 1.5em;"> not healthy, and spiritually, one needs to be covered by another. However, with rising rates of divorces, do you really blame those who shy away from discussing marriage and its importance? No. Afterall statistics have revealed that half of all marriages end in divorce and as if it it's not bad enough, sixty percent of all second marriages call it quits before the seventh year barrier.There are those who believe that the ease at with which one can now obtain a divorce decree has consequently paved the way for the escalating divorce rates. Really? If that's the case, then surely the likes of Kim Kardashian and Evelyn Lozada could be portrayed as the perfect poster children of the demise of the godly </span><span style="line-height: 16.5px;">institution</span><span style="line-height: 1.5em;"> called marriage. However, most of us now </span><span style="line-height: 16.5px;">realize</span><span style="line-height: 1.5em;"> that it is not simply an issue of the 'worldly' folk but even of those of us who believe and cry on the name of the Most High!</span></span></span></h3>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 1.5em;">As someone who has never been married before, I can never claim to know what exactly happens in a marriage. However, as a child of God and post-modern woman, I realise that statements like that are deeply flawed. Firstly, marriage is God ordained. It is a covenant and as with </span><strong style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 1.5em;">ALL</strong><span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 1.5em;"> covenants, there are ramifications should one part decide to sever the bond. If for any reason a divorce occurs, whether because it became necessary for someone to achieve wholeness or to escape something, there are still going to be ramifications</span><em style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 1.5em;"><strong>( see Mark 10:9 and 1 Corin 7:10).</strong></em><span style="color: #333333; font-family: lucida grande, tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif;"><span style="line-height: 1.5em;"> Secondly, marriage is sacred. All that goes on in one's marital bed and home should be kept sacred! The idea of airing one's dirty laundry in public should be looked upon with disapproval and disdain. If things are so bad between you and your spouse, discuss it between the two of you but if of course it doesn't get resolved seek godly counsel from trusted, sagacious friends. However, this is the part that I want to probe further; the issue of balance. Balance, balance, balance! Christians and non-</span><span style="line-height: 24px;">Christians</span><span style="line-height: 1.5em;">, please please hear me out!</span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 1.5em;">There is no point of you giving your all to your ministry, career or whatsoever if your number one ministry, which is your family is being neglected. If you disagree with me, look all around you! Ask the Paula Whites, Juanita Bynums, Fred Hammonds, Hezekiah Walkers and Duncan Williams of our day. There is no way you can substitute your marriage and family with your so called ministry or 'godly' pursuits and expect God to bless you always. It just doesn't happen! The Bible compares the earthly marriage to that of Christ and His Bride, the Church </span><em style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 1.5em;"><strong>( see Ephesians 5:22-29).</strong></em><span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 1.5em;"> If that is the case, do we really have ministers or godly husbands out there who truly love their wives the way Christ loves His church? Hmm. There are those ministers who have their congregations scattered and they wonder what happened. They forget that their priority after God</span><em style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 1.5em;"><strong> (see Matt 6:33) </strong></em><span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 1.5em;"> was to ensure that thier marriages and families were being watered daily </span><em style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 1.5em;"><strong>(see 1 Tim 3:5, 5:8). </strong></em><span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 1.5em;">There's no point trying to be a blessing to be everyone else whilst your own wife and children stay at home bleeding and dying inside because you are absent in their lives!</span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 1.5em;"> As a young girl growing up, I watched one of the most amazing men I have ever known in my life, my dad; win and lose big time. I saw him win each time he made my mother and us his children a priority. People often comment on the fact that pastors' kids are bad and unruly but that is not always the case. They are just people inwardly 'bleeding' and 'dying' due to a lack of attention. I vowed to never get married to a minister or anyone who called himself 'a man of God'. That was over a decade ago. Since that time, I've been involved with a 'man of God' and realised that although I had deep affection for him, he had worse issues to deal with than I probably had, lol. Yet in the eyes of everyone else, he was 'such a great man of God'. These days, the prayer I often mutter is one for wholeness and healing. A large number of people in the Body of Christ are inwardly dying. We call ourselves christians yet we have no fruits to show forth. We have been confused with all manner of doctrines....we really need to go back to basics and feed on the WORD who is Jesus Christ Himself. Once you have tasted the bread of life, trust me, it will be hard for you to be blown away by any doctrine just like that. You will be able to rightly divide the word of truth and apply it to every facet of your daily life. When the storms of life arise, you will be able to command that storm to leave. If of course, divorce occurs, God himself will give you the strength to go through it. God hates divorce </span><em style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 1.5em;"><strong>(see Malachi 2:16)</strong></em><span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 1.5em;"> but He loves each and everyone of His children and that includes the divorced... </span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 1.5em;">To those of you reading this who do believe in their hearts that God wants you married (some people are not called to this state of living;</span><em style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 1.5em;"><strong> see Matthew </strong><strong>19:1-12, particularly verse 12 and 1 Corin 7:8_9), </strong></em><span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 1.5em;">sincerely ask God to make you whole and prepare you for whoever you may decide to marry. Remember, God does not choose our spouses for us, He only directs us to the right one by His Holy Spirit. Ask Him to endow you with strength, courage and wisdom to go into marriage knowing that it is a </span><em style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 1.5em;"><strong>LIFETIME COMMITMENT!</strong></em><span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 1.5em;"> And lastly to those who have been 'burned' before, listen; God is a God of second chances. He heals and restores </span><em style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 1.5em;"><strong>(see Joel 2:25).</strong></em><span style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 1.5em;"> You can surely love again! And lastly to those who are married, please stay that way. LOL....Honor your vows and honor God. Remember Christ deserves that much from His bride too; the church.</span></div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03012878273449933821noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7584373152648719496.post-63940243861086714442012-10-08T16:35:00.001-04:002012-10-08T16:35:54.014-04:00running back to safetyHe kept crawling towards the air mattress which was propped against the wall to keep it out of the temporarily. Every time he inched towards it, I would softly beckon him towards me. "Kyle, don't go near the mattress. Play over here." Now before y'all go on about how unsafe it is to leave a baby playing out in the open like that, you need to understand that I know how light the mattress is so no danger there. We did this dance a couple times until finally the mattress toppled over him and he quickly darted towards me. He fussed a little more from the from the shock of having that thing move towards him than from pain. At first grandma picked him up but he wanted his mummy.After I hugged and kissed him a few times, he started smiling and wanted to get down to play with his toys again.<br />
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I believe that's how it is with God's love. He must really get frustrated with us when we decide to ignore His word and go on a path that will eventually lead to hurt, fear and pain. The thing is most of the time we do not even take the time to read or listen to what he has said in His manual for life (The Bible). We are well aware that <a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Psalm%2091&version=NIV" target="_blank">His word</a> is there and we can refer to it whenever we need it but our blatant disregard for it is what hurts us the most. I'm glad He beckons us toward His love and safely hides us under His wings regardless of our indifference at times. <br />
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I pray that as you read, you will run back to your "safety zone" with God. <br />
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03012878273449933821noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7584373152648719496.post-18450049997708952192012-10-04T14:11:00.003-04:002012-10-04T14:12:29.515-04:00Thankful Thursday!I am blessed beyond measure. I could sit and list the things that have gone wrong in my life and how depressing that would be but I choose to be thankful for all my blessings. I really have been blessed beyond what I can ask for or think of. I was complaining about getting older the other day and my husband said "just be thankful for another year of being closer to God and for life itself."(so wise huh?) <br />
I am thankful for God's grace which is unmerited<br />
I am thankful for a wise,loving, diligent and hardworking husband<br />
I am thankful for my Kyle whose life has taught me lessons I never imagined I HAD TO LEARN<br />
I am thankful for family and friends who surprise you with acts of kindness<br />
I am thankful for people who encourage you on a daily basis<br />
I am thankful for the seemingly random people whose actions change peoples life entirely<br />
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There is so much to be thankful for today and my heart is bursting that Kyle received a good report on His first cardiology appointment! I could do cartwheels right about now! God is good! Take a moment to be thankful today, you're alive and still here!<br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03012878273449933821noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7584373152648719496.post-43401958068486087052012-09-11T16:30:00.000-04:002012-09-11T22:58:32.754-04:00walking alongHe plants His footsteps in the sea and rides upon the storm... Those are lyrics from one of my favorite Methodist Hymns. Sometimes we can not understand God's ways but it all makes sense in the end. I am learning to walk this path without questioning or second guessing because His ways are not my ways. Faith demands that I just believe! I know that He will never leave me nor forsake me because He has said so and all I have to do is believe in His word. <br />
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There have been times when I have been still because I know HE is God and really what good will worrying do me? As my Kyle goes in for his next surgery, I am going to be listening to great praise and worship music and join in the celebration believing that He who has begun this good work will bring it to completion. <br />
<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03012878273449933821noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7584373152648719496.post-66592565005862051422012-08-08T07:55:00.000-04:002012-08-08T07:55:38.165-04:00spiritually bunkrupt I have often times said the worst kind of people are the ones who can lead you astray and cause your soul to be eternally damned. How is it that quack doctors are imprisoned but quack pastors can roam free without any fear of the law. I suppose since it is a matter of discernment as to what an individual should and should not believe in, it makes it possible for these spiritual leaders to do as they please. <br />
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There are many self help and self actualization books out there which feed our minds and intellect with positive affirmation. There are blogs geared towards being optimistic and living your best life to the full but why are churches preaching this same message? Maybe I have totally missed the memo but I thought spiritual leaders were supposed to feed my soul not just my mind. It is quite sickening actually to tun on your TV or radio and hear messages that do nothing for your spiritual growth. If you want inspirational messages that make you want to take on the world full on, you could just as well find the nearest Barnes and Noble(any bookstore will do really).<br />
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A few weeks ago I was listening to a preacher and it dawned on me that all this guy was preaching was the message of self help and nothing about the Gospel or the message of salvation. The church has become so "seeker friendly" that it seems our leaders are afraid to preach the Bible in case they offend the masses. Is the truth of the Bible being taken for granted. Are the days gone by when a message could be so good you felt like the preacher was addressing an area of your life and backing it up with Bible passages? <br />
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03012878273449933821noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7584373152648719496.post-78744714054946144542012-07-01T13:42:00.001-04:002012-07-01T13:43:27.041-04:00After His LikenessI haven't been to church much lately. Since I had Kyle, it's been a little tricky to go to church. I barely get enough sleep most nights and I like to have him with me when I'm not working so that grandma an get some sleep. Well I have been watching <a href="http://www.reslife.org/" target="_blank">Ressurection life church, Grandville</a>, a lot more and today they had Dan Seaborn preaching. He is pretty awesome. One of the coolest pastors out there.<br />
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He compared different pieces of art and their value and made the analogy of the piece of artwork being worth more based on the painter. So if God created us in His image, can you imagine what our worth is? It was pretty sweet to realize again that since I am created in God's image, signed and sealed by the blood of Jesus, I am priceless! Thank God for messages of affirmation!<br />
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Have an amazing week and remember how priceless you are. If you know your worth, others will learn to treasure you.<br />
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03012878273449933821noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7584373152648719496.post-56615765428322128552012-05-10T11:52:00.000-04:002012-05-10T12:01:58.658-04:00Kyle'ogicI am familiar with your ways<br />
I know how you'll act and react even before you do<br />
Closer look, a finger in your mouth<br />
Look here, look there quick fleeting smile<br />
Another look, do I approve<br />
A nudging smile,you fully laugh<br />
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I've known your heart like no other<br />
Even before you entered this world<br />
Your perfect imperfection, an incomplete heart<br />
All the nooks and crannies, bared for all to see<br />
A drug induced look in those days,<br />
Had my heart skipping beats for you<br />
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I was called to walk this path with you<br />
The Maker knew I could do it<br />
He chose me for you, to be your mama<br />
He knew it would have to be me<br />
Many nights to be spent cradling you<br />
Like He's done me in times past<br />
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I'm familiar with your ways<br />
I know the sounds that calm your fears<br />
Whispers of "I love you", "you are mine"<br />
No matter what storms may come<br />
We will weather it, together<br />
Our coarse has been chartered, yours and mine<br />
<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03012878273449933821noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7584373152648719496.post-12645547082732803172012-04-16T11:06:00.001-04:002012-04-16T11:24:30.772-04:00TAKE THE TIME TO READ THIS!!!I promise you will enjoy this if you read it to the end. This has been circulating in a lot of social media and I just happened to take the time to read it today. It warmed my heart and I hope it does yours too.<br />
Professor : You are a Christian, aren’t you, son ?<br />
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Student : Yes, sir.<br />
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Professor: So, you believe in GOD ?<br />
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Student : Absolutely, sir.<br />
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Professor : Is GOD good ?<br />
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Student : Sure.<br />
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Professor: Is GOD all powerful ?<br />
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Student : Yes.<br />
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Professor: My brother died of cancer even though he prayed to GOD to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But GOD didn’t. How is this GOD good then? Hmm?<br />
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(Student was silent.)<br />
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Professor: You can’t answer, can you ? Let’s start again, young fella. Is GOD good?<br />
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Student : Yes.<br />
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Professor: Is satan good ?<br />
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Student : No.<br />
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Professor: Where does satan come from ?<br />
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Student : From … GOD …<br />
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Professor: That’s right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?<br />
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Student : Yes.<br />
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Professor: Evil is everywhere, isn’t it ? And GOD did make everything. Correct?<br />
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Student : Yes.<br />
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Professor: So who created evil ?<br />
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(Student did not answer.)<br />
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Professor: Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don’t they?<br />
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Student : Yes, sir.<br />
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Professor: So, who created them ?<br />
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(Student had no answer.)<br />
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Professor: Science says you have 5 Senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son, have you ever seen GOD?<br />
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Student : No, sir.<br />
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Professor: Tell us if you have ever heard your GOD?<br />
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Student : No , sir.<br />
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Professor: Have you ever felt your GOD, tasted your GOD, smelt your GOD? Have you ever had any sensory perception of GOD for that matter?<br />
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Student : No, sir. I’m afraid I haven’t.<br />
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Professor: Yet you still believe in Him?<br />
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Student : Yes.<br />
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Professor : According to Empirical, Testable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says your GOD doesn’t exist. What do you say to that, son?<br />
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Student : Nothing. I only have my faith.<br />
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Professor: Yes, faith. And that is the problem Science has.<br />
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Student : Professor, is there such a thing as heat?<br />
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Professor: Yes.<br />
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Student : And is there such a thing as cold?<br />
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Professor: Yes.<br />
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Student : No, sir. There isn’t.<br />
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(The lecture theater became very quiet with this turn of events.)<br />
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Student : Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don’t have anything called cold. We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat, but we can’t go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.<br />
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(There was pin-drop silence in the lecture theater.)<br />
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Student : What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?<br />
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Professor: Yes. What is night if there isn’t darkness?<br />
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Student : You’re wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light. But if you have no light constantly, you have nothing and its called darkness, isn’t it? In reality, darkness isn’t. If it is, well you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn’t you?<br />
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Professor: So what is the point you are making, young man ?<br />
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Student : Sir, my point is your philosophical premise is flawed.<br />
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Professor: Flawed ? Can you explain how?<br />
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Student : Sir, you are working on the premise of duality. You argue there is life and then there is death, a good GOD and a bad GOD. You are viewing the concept of GOD as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, Science can’t even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing.<br />
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Death is not the opposite of life: just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?<br />
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Professor: If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, yes, of course, I do.<br />
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Student : Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?<br />
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(The Professor shook his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument was going.)<br />
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Student : Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor. Are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a scientist but a preacher?<br />
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(The class was in uproar.)<br />
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Student : Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor’s brain?<br />
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(The class broke out into laughter. )<br />
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Student : Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor’s brain, felt it, touched or smelt it? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established Rules of Empirical, Stable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir?<br />
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(The room was silent. The Professor stared at the student, his face unfathomable.)<br />
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Professor: I guess you’ll have to take them on faith, son.<br />
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Student : That is it sir … Exactly ! The link between man & GOD is FAITH. That is all that keeps things alive and moving.<br />
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P.S.<br />
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I believe you have enjoyed the conversation. And if so, you’ll probably want your friends / colleagues to enjoy the same, won’t you?<br />
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Forward this to increase their knowledge … or FAITH.<br />
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By the way, that student was EINSTEIN.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03012878273449933821noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7584373152648719496.post-26204465145048859862012-04-09T00:55:00.000-04:002012-04-09T00:55:51.277-04:00Back to the middleI have been feeling a little off balance in recent times. Well mostly since having Kyle. My labor wasn't glorious and easy and the period before and after were both a struggle and still is some days. I want to be able to go to church and worship like I used to but it is kind of difficult to do that with my irregular work schedule, Kyle's appointments and everything in between. There are some days when all I want to do is just be able to get 6 hours straight of sleep but I can't. <br />
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Don't get me wrong, motherhood is an amazing thing. I can't tell you enough how rewarding it is. I think in Ghana there is always so much help you receive from family and that makes it a lot easier. You know that moment in time when you question where you are and why you're there? I am there.<br />
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I have been a little teary today and it probably is hormonal but I just can't seem to shake it. I need to be centered again. Any mamas out there have tips on how to keep the balance? How do y'all keep it all together and remain fabulous? heheAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03012878273449933821noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7584373152648719496.post-86280620636566898062012-03-21T10:03:00.000-04:002012-03-21T10:03:29.201-04:00BioSo I just read ODB (Our daily Bread) thus my inspiration for this post. I feel like these days I have just let life get in the way of several things. I have wasted many hours or days not doing what should be done and just worrying about what everyone thinks. I must say I have slacked quite a bit when it comes to blogging too leaving my entries to once a month at best. Quite appaling in my opinion but again, my excuse is Kyle. HA!<br />
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Anyways, life definitely must go on. I have alsways loved the name David so it came as no surprise when I wanted a middle name for my son to decide on David. I put aside any sentiment of naming my son after his ancestors and settled on David(with hubby's approval). The meaning of David which is "beloved" was not even what drew me to the name but the fact that God said of King David "This is a man after my own heart". Can you imagine having God's approval in this way?<br />
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How would people describe you in a few words if they were to write your biography? Would it be tasteful, heartfelt, bitter, insulting, spiteful, condescending, amazing etc? I have been thinking about it quite a bit for the last few hours. Many times we forget about what God thinks about us and focus on what others think. It is good to a certain extent to recieve a great evaluation from people but ultimately, God's approval surpasses all. <br />
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Here's a few words to describe some of my favorite people<br />
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Hubby: Selfless, loving man who cares more about people than he lets on. Very intelligent, diligent and meticulous in his undertakings. The love of my life!<br />
Daddy: Godly man who's private life matches his public life. Undoubtedly, one of the most Godfearing people I have ever encountered.<br />
Mama: Very humble and prayerful woman without whose guidance I would be absolutely lost<br />
Zeinab: Friend for always! <br />
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I do have a long list of names but for the purposes of not boring my readers to tears, I will end here. Have an amazing day y'all!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03012878273449933821noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7584373152648719496.post-1971695132416526202012-02-23T00:51:00.004-05:002012-02-23T00:51:49.869-05:00Dramatized RantI realized it's been a while since I posted anything. My blogging has been a bit sporadic for a while and I really make no apologies for a it. Life has been busy with the baby and adjusting to the new normal. The folks at my job also don't really care whether you have a baby or a giraffe to take care of. My schedule has been crazy and some! They schedule me for 12 hours shifts without any thought and in addition don't make it consistent enough to live with! Aish! <br />
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Anyways, there's something that bothers me a little at work. There is a 40 some year old lady who talks way too much about any and everybody. I thought this was stuff that high schoolers and some college folk did but for a mother of two to gossip about everything under the sun? Recently, I was called to come say hi to a fellow "African" on another unit. Now mind you, in this place, meeting an African is like a rare UFO siting(a little exaggeration maybe) So I get home and I'm telling a friend who used to work on the same unit with me about it and she already knows every detail of the story! What? How is this possible if the said informant was not even at work and my friend is in a different state? It's puzzling I tell you.<br />
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Any who, I'm back on the k-drama(Korean Drama) bandwagon. Recently saw <a href="http://www.viki.com/channels/3301-lie-to-me" target="_blank">Lie to Me</a>, <a href="http://www.viki.com/channels/4407-last-female-secretary" target="_blank">Protect the Boss</a>,<a href="http://www.viki.com/channels/4041-scent-of-a-woman" target="_blank"> Scent of woman</a>, finished More Charming by the day and going through Dream High! Crazy huh?If you don't like reading subtitles then this is not for you. Maybe I'll get hubby to watch one with me someday(He's probably reading this and going "not on your life"! Hhaha... I pray for grace and peace in the rest of the week for y'all. Be blessed!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03012878273449933821noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7584373152648719496.post-36316552998085349192012-01-27T02:05:00.000-05:002012-01-27T09:13:59.861-05:009/16/11- Easily one of the toughest days of my entire life. Saw my son laying down so helpless and being vented. His little heart seemed to beating on it's own but I didn't have the guts to take a look. I spent a few minutes at the bedside and balled my eyes out after leaving the unit. I know God is in control so I just let my words be few and give it all unto him. The very core of my faith, our faith, has been shaken but we are not broken because He lives and his word has told us that we will be alright.<br />
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I find it so ironic that I was actually reading the book of Job to Kyle on 9/14/11 which was supposed to be the original date of his surgery. It saddened my heart that I let what I saw completely floor me. I looked by sight once again. How could I? I questioned God even though I could not form the words, I did in my heart and my guilt was consuming me. Did my tears mean I did not trust my maker to do what He had said He would?<br />
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I could not allow any negative thoughts in at this time. Try as I did, there would be an occasional fleeting thought of doubt and so I decided to listen to music(mostly hillsongs, delirious, paul baloche, josh wilson, britt nicole etc). I hated that it seemed like I was deliberately trying to make things seem better but I have learned that when one is intentional about something, it can produce amazing and often times positive outcomes! It's such things that faith is made up of. <br />
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<span style="font-family: "Courier New", Courier, monospace;"><strong>our amazing miracle, Kyle David</strong></span></div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03012878273449933821noreply@blogger.com7