Via Dolorosa

It's here again; that time of year where I think about why someone would die in my place and why someone whould want to save my soul from eternal damnation. What kind of love is that? If I had been going the "way of grief/sorrow (via dolorosa) and seen the compassion and contempt on the faces of the people, would I still have had any ounce of kindness and love in me to go and lay down my life?

I am thankful that He had to do it 'cos left to man alone, there would have been no salvation only vengeance! I am thankful that His grace is sufficient for me. I know some people do not believe any of this happened and others believe the stories are just myths but whatever the case may be, I am convinced in my belief that He is the Lord of my life, that the punishment that brought me peace was laid on Him and that He has afforded me the right to be confident because he has conquered all my fears already! That may very well be my opiate but what's yours? What gives you inner peace and joy that nothing can shake?

Thank God

satisfaction

Lately, I've been wondering if I am satisfied with the direction my career is going? There's days when I don't mind where I'm at currently and there are other times when I really could care less. I want to be at that point where no matter the circumstance, I am absolutely loving what I am doing.

Nursing can get a little dark and dreary at times especially when you see all the suffering going on around you. It gets a little depressing. I don't want to get to that point where I am so desensitized to the suffering that everything becomes so routine. I need to sit and re-evaluate.

On a much happier note, summer is just around the corner! I am going to be working throughout the summer but just the thought of sunny days makes me happy! Wherever, you are, I hope you're all having a fabulous day. Thank God that Spring has sprung!

Always there

He showed me again,

In the most vivid sunrise,

With hues of blues and oranges,

Shades of Yellows and reds.

It was as if He was saying

"Gently, my love beckons, yet firmly holds you still"

Until I was awash in the warm glow of that sunrise!

Mine, what content!

Free forever!

Happy Independence Day to all the Ghanaians out there!
"At long last, the battle has ended,
and thus Ghana our Beloved country is free forever"
- Nkrumah, 6th March, 1957

I love how he urged people to change their attitude and their minds. Being held captive or being ruled for a long time seems to make it difficult for people to break free from that bondage and be pace setters. I hope Nkrumah's message on that night continues to resound in our hearts.


God bless our homeland Ghana,
And make our nation great and strong,
Bold to defend forever
The cause of Freedom and of Right.
Fill our hearts with true humility
Make us cherish fearless honesty,
And help us to resist oppressors' rule
With all our will and might evermore.

God Bless y'all!

Forever heart

Loves me more and more
Tell me frequently
Today it was through that sunshine
Yesterday it was through that sweet smile
I wonder how You'll show me tomorrow
Some days the clouds block out the sun
Sometimes it is difficult to recognize the smile
No matter how You show me teach me to live in that moment

Sweetest Day!

Happy Valentine's day Y'all! I know it's a little late but I hope someone was super nice or sweet to you today! I have always felt a little weird about this day. Sometimes I don't know whether to love it or hate it. The commercial side of it is unbelievable! Half my church was wearing red, countless numbers of people at the cinema were wearing red or pink. People had tacky heart shirts on etc... It gets a little nauseating and overwhelming :S

In spite of that, I think it is important for people to remember to be nice and sweet to each other and if it take this one day to remember to do that, then so be it :) I think sometimes in our lives, we forget to appreciate and really love on the people who mean the most to us. Maybe this is the day on which most of us actually sit to think about going out of our way to be nice to those who have been there for us all year long. Hopefully, that is true for you too.

If you're reading this, thanks for visiting my blog and for always checking it even if I don't have any updates for days and days! Happy Valentines Day! Don't forget to brush your teeth before going to bed! Come on, you know I had to throw in a healthy tit bit! Hugs

You Don't Know Me

Let me be myself

Not the preacher's kid
Not her sister

Not your friend

Not my man's woman

Let me be myself

Not the black girl from Africa

Not the little girl who's no more

Not the buddy you hang with

Just...

Let me be myself

Not my father's daughter
Not my uncle's niece

Not my teacher's student

I just wanna ...

Be myself

A child created in His image

Just who I am

Exactly what He intends me to be

... HIS child.

(written a million years ago when I was a freshman in college!)

Future

Candle light dancing in the wind

Their shadows bouncing off my walls

Thinking of yesterdays and yester years

Amazing memories sweetly teasing my senses

With their flirtatious sway

And titillating movements

Gently lulling me to dream land

Promising yesterdays, hopeful tomorrows

Leaving the lovely past behind

Dancing its way back to reality

Giving me strength for today

Innocence

I saw a lovely blue and white looking top

It really did appeal to me so I took a closer look

And discovered right under the racks, a lovely little girl

She could not be a day older than four, I thought

Oh what a sweet innocent cutie pie,

At first I thought she was lost or needed some help

Then I realized in disbelief

She was frantically tearing the price tag off

She looked up as her sister came closer to her hiding place

She daintily placed the band on her head

Linked her little hands with her sisters,

And they skipped on their merry way out

You can imagine my shock at this spectacle

I was so shocked I could hardly move.

The little thief! She made away with the headband

Obviously, her sister was aware!

I forgot all about the top and slowly left the shop

My vision of innocence shattered for the day

By the lovely little thief!

My Yesterday

Picture taken somewhere between Arkansas and Texas!

Impulsively, I almost closed this blog! I was a little annoyed and I have been known to act without thinking too much about it sometimes. Again, my only excuse is I'm short and my heart is way closer to my head so sometimes it doesn't take long to process things at all. When things make me mad, I tend to either ignore, recoil and rebound or totally shut down. I guess as part of my New Year's resolution, I will even be more fearless and vocal about what I think although I am still going to keep my handwritten journal for personal matters which won't travel back to "family".

Anyway, the New year seems promising as usual. I love new beginnings! It always makes me happy :) HAPPY NEW YEAR, EVERYONE! May you be fearless and bold in what you believe in! May you be absolutely compassionate in your dealings in everyday life! Hugs, Maxine :)