Sunday, October 5, 2008
So I turned twenty six today! That's a pretty huge milestone to me! I am no longer good old 25. 25 was a good age to be. I didn't feel too old telling people my age and some were always fairly surprised to hear that I was 25. Now, I don't know if I should feel different or not. I am not upset to have grown a year older...after all I had a whole year to prep for the number 26.
I remember teasing my husband about turning 27 and being in his late 20's...now I am so close and there's no turning back. I woke up this morning with feelings of gratitude and thankfulness. My hubby made me a delicious breakfast!Bless his heart!(I loove when he makes me breakfast.) Anywho, church was great with a continuation of the sermon on John Wesley. I skipped lunch 'cos I was still full from breakfast. Awesome, huh? B and I just watched a bit of TV as I sat waiting for Amma and Pearl to come over. Dinner was at the Bistro Bella Vita. Awesome place!
I never thought getting older could make me feel a little insecure but deep down, it kind of makes me wonder about what I am doing with my life and if it is worth while at all. This whole year has been a year of uncertainty and fear of the unknown. I am working on being that confident young woman I was when I was much younger. On some days, it is great and on others, I am not so sure. I wonder where it comes from though because I was always enouraged to be my best. Don't get me wrong, I can be very outgoing but being outgoing does not necessarily make one confident.
Thomas is really awesome when it comes to encouraging me. It makes me happy to know that the person I chose to spend the rest of my life with, is interested in my well being and wants me to be my very best! So anyways, I cut most of my perm off...I still have a few strand of relaxed hair that I just want gone! My stylist lock twisted it for me but it took much courage for me to rock it in public. I thought I was going to pass out but so far I haven't died and my husband still thinks I'm hot! That helps... but I wanna look my best for myself and for him so I'll eventually rock the 'Fro...but as at now, it aint for me... or is it? It may be true that I am not really my hair(India Arie) but a woman's hair sure is her glory!...
Posted by Maxine Totoe at 10/05/2008