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Sunday, August 30, 2009

Tag, I'm It!

This Award was passed on from YNC and I was also tagged, so I have to share seven facts about myself which are listed below:

1. I love music and I sing in a choir(contemporary christian)

2. I've known my husband since 5th grade

3. I don't have a brother(got 3 gorgeous sisters!)

4. I can eat up to 6 or 7 times a day and I usually do eat almost every 3-4 hours till I go to (weigh only about 110-115lbs!...can I get an Amen!)

5. I usually say a prayer of thanks soon as I wake up, followed by a 600 ml bottle of water:)

6. I volunteer(or service-learning) a ton and I think volunteering is awesome... OK borderline amazing!

7. I love shoes!... if only I had a ton of money to buy all the ones I wanted! Anybody related to Christian Louboutin? Can you hook a sister up?...hehe

(Below are the bloggers that I am passing this award along to, and

also tagging)


Friday, August 28, 2009

I Am My Brother's Keeper!

I watched her as tears streamed down her face
Her words were muffled in pain and confusion
She wanted an outlet from the emotional pain
Needed someone to show that they cared
So she turned to drugs and prostitution
'Cos for those brief moments of pleasure
All the pain seemed to disappear
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I watched her as tears streamed down my face
Her words struck a deep chord within
I wanted to reach out and touch her
Needed to show her that I cared
So I turned to reach for my tissue
Realizing that I was shedding tears for a stranger
He saw the pain I felt for her
...And momentarily turned the TV off...
(For the lovely tormented soul I saw on TV today,
wish I could have given you a hug)
Photo by Bluepeep88 via photobucket

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Thankful Tuesday

Thanks for reading my blog even if you don't follow it! This piece is for you!

My heart is full of gratitude

For the many wondrous gifts

Gifts bestowed on me freely

Unconditional Love too!

My eyes well up when I think of it

The words of encouragement,

Loving family and friends,

Adoring words from strangers too!

Not many words to express it

I may not utter it many times,

But trully and really,

I am most thankful and grateful too!

Copyright ©2009 Maxine Mosley Totoe

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Oh yes, I did!

Gross post alert!!!

I have always been afraid of puking!
Yes you heard me, PUKING!
I seriously get really noxious at times but have never puked
Actually I do not ever recall throwing up in all of my adult life!

Anyways, this weekend, I drove up north to visit a friend
We had a really mellow weekend away from the hubby and boyfriend
It was just me, my girlfriend, and the wide open country!
You know you're in the boons when the site of a JC Penney excites you!

So after walking around the "downtown" area we decided to get some food
I ordered a bruschetta, some lamb chops, yummy stuff
My friend ordered a smoked salmon appetizer and lamb chops too
So delicious!

Then we drove back on the high way and took in the scenery of the country side
I forgot for a minute that I get very car sick, hated raw tomatoes and dairy don't agree with me!
We took a couple different turns 'cos girlfriend wanted to show me her neck'a the woods
First a hiccup, then my mouth begun to water and then oh my God!!! I felt like puking!

Before I could utter the words...
All my food came pouring out! I mean full on projectile type!
It was the weirdest feeling ever!
Why are people bulimic again?

It was quite an eventful weekend for me! First puke! nope I'm not preggers either!

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Whispers of the heart

She said "I love you"

He said "I love you too"... "and I loved you first!"

He took one look at her face and knew she would say "I love you more"

But he kept right on "I loved you from the first day I saw you,

But you, it took you years to love me... (with a smile and head tilted to one side)...

So technically, I loved you first and I have loved you more"


But she could lay there for years,
To have sweet nothin's whispered in her ears...

Copyright ©2009 Maxine Mosley Totoe

Tuesday, August 18, 2009


Tried to express myself in the most articulate way possible

No matter how articulate I was, my expressions fell short

I wish you could have heard my heart speak

'Cos when my mouth tried to form the words, they fell short

Alas, my words failed me.

They say out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks

My heart is full of many beautiful words

But this mouth does not always convey the right message

And my words come out in spurts

It's only a semblance of the image I would like to paint

Only a shadow of what my heart projects...

Copyright ©2009 Maxine Mosley Totoe

Sunday, August 16, 2009

District 6

I'm an alien, I'm a legal alien, I'm an Englishman in New York... (Sting and Police)

I saw District 9 this weekned and at first I wondered, "where are they going with this alien ish"? I was not even sure if I liked it and would have left the cinema if we had not paid for it. After the first 15 minutes however, I started wondering if it might be a satire and decided to think of it as such. Apparently, the eviction and relocation of the aliens is based on District Six, a former inner-city residential area in Cape Town, South Africa. The district was declared a 'whites only' area by the apartheid government in 1966 and the population of 60,000 forcibly removed to Cape Flats, 25 kilometres away during the following years.

This movie really got me thinking about Zimbabwe's current situation too. There are so many individuals and organizations with good intentions but when good intentions go bad, who remains to clean up the mess? Ever heard the saying " the road to hell is paved with good intentions? I think various international aid groups need to watch this movie. Sometimes, I feel like everyone wants to do so much good that they forget about the needs of the people in need.

I also begun thinking about America with it's non-immigrant laws which don't really seem to make much sense to me sometimes. At times, it feels almost as if once you are not born here, you are an inferior breed. I wonder if any of those law-makers have any non-immigrant relatives and if they have ever bothered to ask about the challenges of these people. I almost understand why there are so many illegal aliens! I do! How do you pay for legal fees that run in the $1000s and forms that cost an arm and a leg when you are unable to work legally? hmm... The focus of ones help can never be put above the needs of the person in need. Every now and then, we need to evaluate and re-evaluate our decisions. I'm still in thought. I could be wrong.

ps: If you're Nigerian, you MUST see this movie!
pss: 50th post! whoop, whoop!

Friday, August 14, 2009

Her Life

Little sister so young and tender
So much wisdom she’s got to ponder
Tender shoot, root so strong
Uncompromising to please your ideals

In her words
“So I walked on,
Like every other
Didn’t care to turn back
See if the road was right
It felt right
Everyone walked on the same road”

Her joy so infectious
They wonder what happened
She said He did it
So much of Him
Very little of her
Now you look at her
All you see is Him

Little sister so young and tender
So much strength for this offender
Fragile heart, faith renewed
Unshaken reserve to please only Him

Copyright ©2009 Maxine Mosley Totoe
Again, if you haven't done so already, check out KRey music @

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Trickery and Disguise

Glossy sultry Lips,
Perfectly arched eye brows,
Eye lashes about an inch long,
Complexion with speckles of gold dust.
Ah, women and their makeup!

I was looking at a couple pictures of mine and I noticed that some of them had me with brownish
lipliner that was a shade too dark than I would have liked.
I am not a beauty expert but when I see people with really dark lip liner or eye shadow on as if they are in a circus act, it really irks me. I have always considered makeup as a way of enhancing or improving ones own features but when you go beyond that and start looking like a clown, you need a second opinion! Some will argue that Make Up is an Art form and if that is the case, then you should be able to express yourself through that. Fair enough, but in doing so, I believe we should make it as natural as possible. I don't really believe much in trends. I'd rather be classy and go with a classic fun look than what new today. Oh by the way, Fall trend for lips is apparentlly super dark shades! Grrr...

How to apply LIPLINER:
1.Outline your lips with a lip liner that is a little darker than your lipstick color. 2.Apply your lipstick using a color that closely matches the lip liner. 3.Use a lipstick brush or your index finger to blend the lip liner with your lipstick. 4.Apply a sheer lipgloss. You just have to keep practising until you get it right.
There are certain occasions which do call for a little bit more than the usual mascara, lipgloss and foundation or concealer. The worst is the fake eyelashes which look like giant tarantulas trying to eat the eyes out! Why people, why at all do we do this to ourselves? I remember my sister took me to a beauty parlor in Ghana about a week to my wedding to get my eyelashes filled in. Mind you they are already long. They were individually filled in and looked quite natural but it hurt like crazy too. I wondered for a minute in that chair I was strapped in, if this was some sort of torcher chamber. It could very well have been with the kind of painful moans and groans from different corners of the room.
I guess my point is, keep it natural and not too harsh or severe!

By the way, Ken Reynold's CD's are now available and can be previewed here It also has links to where you can purchase it. I have been blessed by this CD and I hope you will be too! God Bless!

Monday, August 10, 2009


Hi Bloggers! It is Today!
My Worship pastor, Ken Reynolds with Reslife choir(My church choir), Madison Square choir and New Hope choir in association with Integrity Music will have the Album release of the recent CD One World/One God. This is an amazing CD! I can't wait to get my copy. People if you want a really great worship and praise experience, you have to order a copy! The CD release is today August 11th! Follow this link for a preview!
If you listen hard enough, you might hear me singing! If you live in the Grand Rapids area, the concert to celebrate the CD release is August 16th! Be prepared for an amazing worship/praise experience!
I also encourage you to join the official Ken Reynolds Facebook Fan Page: or you can also follow him if you are on Twitter at KReynoldsMusic . Thank you so much, God Bless!

Sunday, August 9, 2009

Water, Water, Everywhere!

Well as some of you have figured out already, I am a health nut of some sort. Not my fault, it's the Nurse in me. When I was younger, my mum used to have a glass of water by her bedside every morning and I used to wonder why she would do that. I hated drinking water unless it had some sugar in it or was carbonated! She always encouraged us to drink a tall glass of water and I guess she was on to something. Here goes...
... DRINK WATER ON EMPTY STOMACH. Apparently, it is popular in Japan today to drink water immediately after waking up every morning. Furthermore, scientific tests have proven its value. Now I can not vouch for these research claims but I can attest to the fact that drinking water on an empty stomach in the morning, gives me the same boost of energy as eating a small bowl of cereal and also gets your metabolism going! Just try it for a week and see if you don't feel better. I also aim to drink at least 4 bottles( 600ml) each day! I realize that most of the time, the majority of colored people admitted while I was working at the hospital were dehydrated so consider this my little campaign to get us hydrated! Quench your thirst, people!

Also, the following fruits are dear to my heart and if you are not a huge fan of Bananas like myself, you can substitute with Plantains.

Bananas: Protects your heart , Quiets a cough ,Strengthens bones ,Controls blood pressure, Blocks diarrhea

Blueberries: Combats cancer, Protects your heart,Stabilizes blood sugar,Boosts memory, Prevents constipation

Broccoli: Strengthens bones,Saves eyesight,Combats cancer, Protects your heart,Controls blood pressure
Cabbage: Combats cancer,Prevents constipation,Promotes weight loss,Protects your heart,
Helps hemorrhoids

Have a happy and Healthy Monday!

Thursday, August 6, 2009

Scheduling Conflict?

I thought about you today
As I got up from my bed
All I could think of was you
I wanted to talk
Slowly I pushed myself up
With my right hand
Sat at the edge of the bed for a few minutes

Then I thought to myself:
Did he give me a kiss good morning/good bye?

I kept thinking about you
As I walked to the bathroom
Subconsciously, I whispered "Thank You"
And did the usual " a couple silly faces to make me smile"
I stared back at the image
And wondered why you gave me these features
Walked purposefully to the kitchen...

Then I thought to myself:
Did I eat too much dairy again?

I'm still thinking about you
1,2,3 O'clock come by
Emails checked, replied,
Facebook checked and stalked
Blogspot checked, new followers
Mine, where did the time go
Turned the TV on to while away the time
Then I thought to myself:
Did I call him already?

I thought about you
I know it felt like I was stalling
I could have made the contact there and then
Is it OK if I don't talk to you today?
Would you understand if I pretend that's okay?
Would you always care anyways?
Whether words are spoken or not?

Then I thought to myself:
Does it even matter?

So here I am at the close of today
Still thinking about you
Wishing I could talk to you
Cluttered my world with unnecessary chatter
Confused myself with insignificant banter
When all the while you watched on with a smile
Thinking of me as another day begins

Monday, August 3, 2009


Why do they say they "fell" in Love?
In my experience a fall comes with pain and hurt
So would falling in love give you a positive outcome?
What would happen if you were to rise in love?

If we were smart we will "grow" in love , I think
Growing comes with hopes of better days and renewal
So growth in love is my fervent prayer
That hearts maybe safe from the hurt that come with falling in love

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