GRACE!!!

"If I feel bitterly towards those who condemn me, as it seems to me, unjustly, forgetting that if they knew me as I know myself they would condemn me much more, then I know nothing of Calvary's love." I am not sure where I saw or read this quote but it is quite a comfort to me and anytime I feel ugly towards other people, I am quickly reminded of God's ever unfailing love and mercies towards me.

Thanks be to God, my sister finally found some sort of a job! I am so excited for her that I can not contain it. I was so worried that she would never be motivated to find one. Oh Thank you God! Anywho, I am pretty pumped for life!...haha...I always am I guess. Sometimes I am not really. Like sometime last weekend I got a little ugly and was really broody and quiet. I hate those darn times. I'm not sure if it was hormonal or just good ole Maxine! Oh well, I'm out of the stinker so its good. whohooo!!!

grrr

I'm learning that I have a short fuse. Well what can I say, my heart is too close to my head! I'm only 5"1 and some... It is something I need to keep working on. I easily get mad at things that don't make sense to me instead of looking at the bigger picture. I think this is a step in the right direction, or? At least I am acknowledging what my downfall is, right? I get a little too passionate about issues that matter to me and maybe I need a chill pill sometimes? aarrggghhh...I'm sure you think I'm some sort of a nutcase huh? Oh well, your opinion; you're entitled to it.

Hey I saw "Beaches" today!...lol...I loved it way back when I saw it as a kid and couldn't get "that's the story of, that's the glory of love" out of my head. Anywho, I didn't remember it being that much of a tear jerker but I guess it is in some ways. I mean who wants their bestfriend to die instead of growing old together?!

hmmm

So I spoke to my friend personally about what was bothering me. I was tired of the whole this person said this and I said that and all. Tired of having other people interfere when we can talk about stuff like civilized adults. Apparently we had all had a big misunderstanding over emails and online. I still am a little iffy 'cos I don't understand some stuff but its all good. God knows ma heart. I don't get how other people will budge in and say things they know nothing about. It really upsets me! It is why I try to keep ma distance and stay in good ole Grand Rapids because I don't want to be involved in drama! Like seriously! I consider myself a loyal friend and try to put my friends interest first but when I am made to feel like I compromised that, it really upsets me.

Anywho, its all good and life goes on. You might win some. I was going to make the effort to get to know some people but I need to reserve me energy and reanalyze. Whatever it is, its cool... it gets very difficult but I guess I need to keep trying if I am trying to be like Him.

In the words of Oswald Chambers "Stop having a measuring stick for other people. There is always at least one more fact, which we know nothing about, in every person’s situation. The first thing God does is to give us a thorough spiritual cleaning. After that, there is no possibility of pride remaining in us. I have never met a person I could despair of, or lose all hope for, after discerning what lies in me apart from the grace of God."...

...wise words!

awww...argh!

About two weeks ago Thomas announced to me that he had booked us into an artsy class. I was going to take nail art and he was doing something else but then he got called in to work and I ended up going to the Artistry Beauty Institute by myself... to my joy and great delight, it was a freaking SPA appointement! Ah, the joy of being married to a thoughtful bloke! Priceless!...

Today, I was on the phone and needed to plug the printer cable into the laptop and T won't get off his behind to do it for me and I got really mad because I thought he was being self centered and inconsiderate.(it was quite the other way round) Blame my hormones! It is after all that time of the month! and I forgot to pick up my prescription for my Birth control pills and now it has expired and I have my annual appointment on Monday but I have to take it by Sunday!...grrr Anyways, I did say quite a few unpleasant words to him after I made him come see "SATC" with me. In short, I was a mean bitch to my wonderful husband instead of being a loving wife! He paid for my addiction(shopping)! Life, sometimes its sour, other times it is sweet. I guess my day has been like my face drink( a Midori Sour)... hehe...go get yourself one!