Thinking...

My sisters and I(Please do not copy)
All along, I have been thinking that God is making me go through this period of uncertainty in order to bring me to a realization in the end. I learned however, that this really could be the lesson. This period of being still and knowing that God is near!...this is the lesson. It can be frustrating though because I am not used to it. There is so much to think about. Growing up is not fun at all...well sometimes it is.

I have been thinking about how much I miss my sisters lately. I really wish they lived close to me. All my life, my sisters have been a very strong force in my life and I can not imagine my life without them. We have our fair share of fights and disagreements but through it all, we have remained friends and I am so grateful for that. My big sister,Judith, is one of the most selfless and fun people you will ever meet!!!...Joana, is very down to earth and very matter-of-factly. She always tells it as it is without embelishing the truth. I really appreciate her honesty. My little sister,Evie Eve, is so thoughtful and she is a lot like me when it comes to the creative arts. She has an amazing voice too. I guess I am just feeling really homesick.

This past weekend, they had a dinner party for my dad's 60th and I really was agonizing over not being there. I know you can not choose your family but to have your family be your friends too, that's just priceless! I miss y'all!

Tag, I'm It!

This Award was passed on from YNC and I was also tagged, so I have to share seven facts about myself which are listed below:

1. I love music and I sing in a choir(contemporary christian)

2. I've known my husband since 5th grade

3. I don't have a brother(got 3 gorgeous sisters!)

4. I can eat up to 6 or 7 times a day and I usually do eat almost every 3-4 hours till I go to bed...lol... (weigh only about 110-115lbs!...can I get an Amen!)

5. I usually say a prayer of thanks soon as I wake up, followed by a 600 ml bottle of water:)

6. I volunteer(or service-learning) a ton and I think volunteering is awesome... OK borderline amazing!

7. I love shoes!... if only I had a ton of money to buy all the ones I wanted! Anybody related to Christian Louboutin? Can you hook a sister up?...hehe

(Below are the bloggers that I am passing this award along to, and

also tagging)

20savvy

Shels

Amina

I Am My Brother's Keeper!

I watched her as tears streamed down her face

Her words were muffled in pain and confusion

She wanted an outlet from the emotional pain

Needed someone to show that they cared

So she turned to drugs and prostitution

'Cos for those brief moments of pleasure

All the pain seemed to disappear

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I watched her as tears streamed down my face

Her words struck a deep chord within

I wanted to reach out and touch her

Needed to show her that I cared

So I turned to reach for my tissue

Realizing that I was shedding tears for a stranger

He saw the pain I felt for her

...And momentarily turned the TV off...

*----------------------------------------------------*

(For the lovely tormented soul I saw on TV today,

wish I could have given you a hug)

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Thankful Tuesday

Thanks for reading my blog even if you don't follow it! This piece is for you!

My heart is full of gratitude

For the many wondrous gifts

Gifts bestowed on me freely

Unconditional Love too!

My eyes well up when I think of it

The words of encouragement,

Loving family and friends,

Adoring words from strangers too!

Not many words to express it

I may not utter it many times,

But trully and really,

I am most thankful and grateful too!

Copyright ©2009 Maxine Mosley Totoe

Oh yes, I did!

Gross post alert!!!

I have always been afraid of puking!
Yes you heard me, PUKING!
I seriously get really noxious at times but have never puked
Actually I do not ever recall throwing up in all of my adult life!

Anyways, this weekend, I drove up north to visit a friend
We had a really mellow weekend away from the hubby and boyfriend
It was just me, my girlfriend, and the wide open country!
You know you're in the boons when the site of a JC Penney excites you!

So after walking around the "downtown" area we decided to get some food
I ordered a bruschetta, some lamb chops, yummy stuff
My friend ordered a smoked salmon appetizer and lamb chops too
So delicious!

Then we drove back on the high way and took in the scenery of the country side
I forgot for a minute that I get very car sick, hated raw tomatoes and dairy don't agree with me!
We took a couple different turns 'cos girlfriend wanted to show me her neck'a the woods
First a hiccup, then my mouth begun to water and then oh my God!!! I felt like puking!

Before I could utter the words...
All my food came pouring out! I mean full on projectile type!
It was the weirdest feeling ever!
Why are people bulimic again?

It was quite an eventful weekend for me! First puke!...lol... nope I'm not preggers either!

Whispers of the heart

She said "I love you"

He said "I love you too"... "and I loved you first!"

He took one look at her face and knew she would say "I love you more"

But he kept right on "I loved you from the first day I saw you,

But you, it took you years to love me... (with a smile and head tilted to one side)...

So technically, I loved you first and I have loved you more"

Grrr...

But she could lay there for years,

To have sweet nothin's whispered in her ears...

Copyright ©2009 Maxine Mosley Totoe

Frustration

Tried to express myself in the most articulate way possible

No matter how articulate I was, my expressions fell short

I wish you could have heard my heart speak

'Cos when my mouth tried to form the words, they fell short

Alas, my words failed me.

They say out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks

My heart is full of many beautiful words

But this mouth does not always convey the right message

And my words come out in spurts

It's only a semblance of the image I would like to paint

Only a shadow of what my heart projects...

Copyright ©2009 Maxine Mosley Totoe

District 6

I'm an alien, I'm a legal alien, I'm an Englishman in New York... (Sting and Police)

I saw District 9 this weekned and at first I wondered, "where are they going with this alien ish"? I was not even sure if I liked it and would have left the cinema if we had not paid for it. After the first 15 minutes however, I started wondering if it might be a satire and decided to think of it as such. Apparently, the eviction and relocation of the aliens is based on District Six, a former inner-city residential area in Cape Town, South Africa. The district was declared a 'whites only' area by the apartheid government in 1966 and the population of 60,000 forcibly removed to Cape Flats, 25 kilometres away during the following years.

This movie really got me thinking about Zimbabwe's current situation too. There are so many individuals and organizations with good intentions but when good intentions go bad, who remains to clean up the mess? Ever heard the saying " the road to hell is paved with good intentions? I think various international aid groups need to watch this movie. Sometimes, I feel like everyone wants to do so much good that they forget about the needs of the people in need.

I also begun thinking about America with it's non-immigrant laws which don't really seem to make much sense to me sometimes. At times, it feels almost as if once you are not born here, you are an inferior breed. I wonder if any of those law-makers have any non-immigrant relatives and if they have ever bothered to ask about the challenges of these people. I almost understand why there are so many illegal aliens! I do! How do you pay for legal fees that run in the $1000s and forms that cost an arm and a leg when you are unable to work legally? hmm... The focus of ones help can never be put above the needs of the person in need. Every now and then, we need to evaluate and re-evaluate our decisions. I'm still in thought. I could be wrong.

ps: If you're Nigerian, you MUST see this movie!...lol...
pss: 50th post! whoop, whoop!

Her Life

Little sister so young and tender
So much wisdom she’s got to ponder
Tender shoot, root so strong
Uncompromising to please your ideals

In her words
“So I walked on,
Like every other
Didn’t care to turn back
See if the road was right
It felt right
Everyone walked on the same road”

Her joy so infectious
They wonder what happened
She said He did it
So much of Him
Very little of her
Now you look at her
All you see is Him

Little sister so young and tender
So much strength for this offender
Fragile heart, faith renewed
Unshaken reserve to please only Him

Copyright ©2009 Maxine Mosley Totoe
Again, if you haven't done so already, check out KRey music @http://www.integritymusic.com/ecard/1W1G

Trickery and Disguise

Glossy sultry Lips,

Perfectly arched eye brows,

Eye lashes about an inch long,

Complexion with speckles of gold dust.

Ah, women and their makeup!

I was looking at a couple pictures of mine and I noticed that some of them had me with brownish

lipliner that was a shade too dark than I would have liked.

I am not a beauty expert but when I see people with really dark lip liner or eye shadow on as if they are in a circus act, it really irks me. I have always considered makeup as a way of enhancing or improving ones own features but when you go beyond that and start looking like a clown, you need a second opinion! Some will argue that Make Up is an Art form and if that is the case, then you should be able to express yourself through that. Fair enough, but in doing so, I believe we should make it as natural as possible. I don't really believe much in trends. I'd rather be classy and go with a classic fun look than what new today. Oh by the way, Fall trend for lips is apparentlly super dark shades! Grrr...

How to apply LIPLINER:

1.Outline your lips with a lip liner that is a little darker than your lipstick color. 2.Apply your lipstick using a color that closely matches the lip liner. 3.Use a lipstick brush or your index finger to blend the lip liner with your lipstick. 4.Apply a sheer lipgloss. You just have to keep practising until you get it right.

There are certain occasions which do call for a little bit more than the usual mascara, lipgloss and foundation or concealer. The worst is the fake eyelashes which look like giant tarantulas trying to eat the eyes out! Why people, why at all do we do this to ourselves? I remember my sister took me to a beauty parlor in Ghana about a week to my wedding to get my eyelashes filled in. Mind you they are already long. They were individually filled in and looked quite natural but it hurt like crazy too. I wondered for a minute in that chair I was strapped in, if this was some sort of torcher chamber. It could very well have been with the kind of painful moans and groans from different corners of the room.

I guess my point is, keep it natural and not too harsh or severe!

By the way, Ken Reynold's CD's are now available and can be previewed here http://www.integritymusic.com/ecard/1W1G It also has links to where you can purchase it. I have been blessed by this CD and I hope you will be too! God Bless!