hmmm

So I spoke to my friend personally about what was bothering me. I was tired of the whole this person said this and I said that and all. Tired of having other people interfere when we can talk about stuff like civilized adults. Apparently we had all had a big misunderstanding over emails and online. I still am a little iffy 'cos I don't understand some stuff but its all good. God knows ma heart. I don't get how other people will budge in and say things they know nothing about. It really upsets me! It is why I try to keep ma distance and stay in good ole Grand Rapids because I don't want to be involved in drama! Like seriously! I consider myself a loyal friend and try to put my friends interest first but when I am made to feel like I compromised that, it really upsets me.

Anywho, its all good and life goes on. You might win some. I was going to make the effort to get to know some people but I need to reserve me energy and reanalyze. Whatever it is, its cool... it gets very difficult but I guess I need to keep trying if I am trying to be like Him.

In the words of Oswald Chambers "Stop having a measuring stick for other people. There is always at least one more fact, which we know nothing about, in every person’s situation. The first thing God does is to give us a thorough spiritual cleaning. After that, there is no possibility of pride remaining in us. I have never met a person I could despair of, or lose all hope for, after discerning what lies in me apart from the grace of God."...

...wise words!

awww...argh!

About two weeks ago Thomas announced to me that he had booked us into an artsy class. I was going to take nail art and he was doing something else but then he got called in to work and I ended up going to the Artistry Beauty Institute by myself... to my joy and great delight, it was a freaking SPA appointement! Ah, the joy of being married to a thoughtful bloke! Priceless!...

Today, I was on the phone and needed to plug the printer cable into the laptop and T won't get off his behind to do it for me and I got really mad because I thought he was being self centered and inconsiderate.(it was quite the other way round) Blame my hormones! It is after all that time of the month! and I forgot to pick up my prescription for my Birth control pills and now it has expired and I have my annual appointment on Monday but I have to take it by Sunday!...grrr Anyways, I did say quite a few unpleasant words to him after I made him come see "SATC" with me. In short, I was a mean bitch to my wonderful husband instead of being a loving wife! He paid for my addiction(shopping)! Life, sometimes its sour, other times it is sweet. I guess my day has been like my face drink( a Midori Sour)... hehe...go get yourself one!

What is wrong with the Motherland?...

It is Monday May 26, 2008 and I'm at Innotec with Thomas. I was going to start reading " The Paris Option" by Robert Ludlum but I sat at the desk and saw a book titled " Against all hope: Hope for Africa by Darrow L. Miller and Scott Allen. I usually try to steer clear of such books because it is usually written by folks who have not really experienced Africa in the the sense that its inhabitants have experienced it. Such people can always go and conduct their researches in Africa and decide to leave when they are done or runnng out of funding. The people in the motherland however, continue to live and make ends meet no matter what. That alone think should speak to the will power to live and survive against the odds. I have not read the booklet into detail yet but one statement that caught my eye on page 32 was "Resources do not come from the ground but from the innovation of the human mind." That's quite an interesting statement that kept resonating in my mind as I kept reading the book.

There were so many things to be said in response to the authors views and it made me wonder if they were right and I was wrong. I have always been aware of the kind of hopelessness that is evident when you speak to most Africans or Ghanaians to be more specific. According to the authors of the book, our main problem or the root of all our struggles is the fact that our worldview is wrong. The statement they made was that "The root of the problem is inside the minds of the people of the continent." Is this really true? If it is, then what has shaped our worldview? Where did we go wrong/ How did we end up with a fatalist/ spiritist worldview which is deeply rooted in the Animistic culture? As a christian, I have always believed that when you take God out of the equation, then things start going downhill because this has been very true of my life. Is the worldview of the average african really fatalistic and spiritist?

Aren't asian nations like China and Singapore mainly of a different worldview other than Christian or Godly? Why are they not poorer than Africa? I think I need to have a chat with my father about this issue because my little mind is overwhelmed by the questions. How can we rise out of the dark black hole that we have been portrayed to be in? How can we get our corrupt leaders to realize that the good of the community supercedes that of individual interest?Can anybody give me any answers?

huh...hahaa

Hey so I went jogging with hubby like two days ago! We did like almost 3 miles I think. Yes 3 miles!....pretty awesome. Oh and we went power walking today because I was super sore from lack of physical activity but it felt really great. You know how the endorphins kick in and u feel like you're the healthiest person ever? Yep, that's how it was. Anywho, so I was on facebook today...(as usual)...lol...and I noticed that this "friend" of mine had sent my husband a friend a request like a while back but has taken me off her friend list!...lol...I started laughing so hard 'cos all I could think was "what a loser"! Like seriously? I would tell you everything that happened before our relationship went sour but it would be a little childish which is exactly how I felt when we were friends...I'm not sure...hmmm...lol

I tried to let her know that I was hurt and blah blah blah but I guess she was hurt too. I probably do care a lot more than I'm letting on otherwise I would not even blog about it. Anyways, I wish her all the best in her life and maybe someday if we become friends again, I would want her to know that I mean every single word I've written on here...talk about insincere friends right?...You're one of them, boo but I ain't mad at you,...heeeyyy!...lol

Moving on! So immigration numbers are still getting closer but yet still far away!I am a little frustrated with that but its all good. I think I need to remind my lazy behind to get my application essay done so I can go back to school. Maybe that's what I am supposed to do but I don't know for sure. Oh well, we'll see. I'm off to watch t.v. Sometimes I don't even know why I bother with it. Some of the shows seem to be created to make you dumb on purpose. It is unbelievable. Anyways, ciao!

MAMA's

So mother's day is here again and its pretty neat. The message at church was about the wonderful women of the Bible including Mary, Rahab and Moses' mom. It is pretty amazing what mothers do, you know. They cook and clean and have our best interest at heart. My mother just cracked me up when I called her this afternoon. She always make me laugh so hard with her unjaded vision of the world... yet she always warns of the dangers of this world and how not everyone may be wanting your success! I love her! Anyways, I called my aunt too who was not having such a great day because my cousin was being a typical teenager(rebellious).

Anywho, I wish I had lots of money 'cos the first thing I would do is take my mum on a well deserved vacation from home. She has been so dedicated in her effort to create a home for us that she totally forgot about herself and her dreams and aspirations. My mother lived in the UK for 6 months when were kids and after she got back, she promised she was never going to leave her children to be looked after by other people... and she hasn't been outside Ghana since then. Now that is commitment! Sometimes I wish I was more like her; so prayerful and God-fearing and such a warrior!

Anyway, to all the mothers who constantly seek all the good in the world for your children, I say happy mother's day and may God bless you for your efforts!

hrmph...money

Uhm...so I've been thinking about writing for a while now but I have just been putting it off because there's too much to write about. Sometimes I feel like I think too much about one topic and then when I don't feel like talking about it anymore, I go off on a tangent when that particular topic is not exhausted but I will try to stay on course. So I have realised that a lot of my friends are always complaining about how "broke" they are. Even my very well off friends always complain about being broke when they really are not. I do have issues with that. Why is it so wrong to talk about money? I s'pose if you really do have enough money to take care of yourself or you can ask your parents for some form of support when you are in a bind, you really should not complain and whine when people who are really in need are.

I think growing up, I was always made aware of my parents financial situation. If my father told us he did not have enough money, he was for real and we all understood that. I guess I could say that most of the kids I went to school with were from pretty affluent families and so they probably could not identify with being trully broke. I know people who can just call home and ask for money to be wired to them and it will be done. Just like that...and you know what they do with all that money? Go shopping! Seriously! I guess I could honestly say that my parents are not doing so bad at this moment in their life 'cos they got all our college education out of the way except Evelyn's. I am so proud of my parents for taking care of their own and other people's children especially putting others through school. That must not be so easy!!!

Sometimes I wonder if people's selfish behavior may be a result of getting everything they ever wanted without really having worked for it. A lot of kids I grew up with need to learn the art of giving and helping friends out when they are desperately in need without really expecting anything in return. I think it can be pretty difficult to do but I hope that someday when I make enough money, I can be as generous as people have been towards me. Maybe I can write someone a check for $300-$500 for someone's birthday like SM does!

hmmm...

So my little mind is still wondering and wandering as usual!... I have come to the conclusion that people can be very interesting, (as if no one knew that already) but our behavior towards one another can be very appalling! No wonder my parents love to watch National Geographic footages of animal life! Oh well, I was just thinking"what if we always said whatever we were thinking at exactly the time when we are thinking it?" No inhibitions whatsoever? Lord have mercy! That would probably start another war right? But really, what prevents us from being honest with each other? Is it the fear of rejection or being social outcasts. From the look of things, a lot of people do feel like social outcasts already so why don't we just blurt out our thoughts!? I have learned something about myself recently! Ah, the pursuit of self knowledge or awareness! Priceless! I think the reason why I don't care about some of my relationships with some of my friends is because I already have a very supportive family, my sisters are like my very best friends, my husband is an awesome listener so it makes it hard for me to have to deal with other people's crap!...lol... Sometimes T and I talk about friends and hanging out and all that "normal" people supposedly do. People always say it is not good not to have many friends when you get exclusive with a guy but my question is" what if the guy/girl is genuinely awesomer than your loser friends?...lol...uhm...I don't mean my friends are losers. Not at all. Actually, I have some pretty amazing friends. The thing is, for me, once I can offload on someone other than my hubby, and laugh and cry about stuff to my family without fear of judgement, that's the most important thing to me. Does anyone really need a ton of fake-a$$ friends instead of the very few good ones?...Certainly not! Oh Crap, its getting late. I forgot that I have to volunteer tommorow...off to catch some zzzzz:-)

Sheer Bliss!

I am blissfully happy!...I could try to explain but it will be x-rated so lets just leave it at that. I love ma boo! So I just got back from L.A.,California! Yes the trip did happen. Can I get an Amen!? Anyways, this was my first time so it was pretty low-key, no hunting for stars or anything crazy like that. It was great just to have some girl time u know. We (Mammie and Abena) stayed at Atsere Sika's place...hehe...I wish they had apartments like that in GR...dem apartments is nice!!! Child, you should see them. Anywho, I took the red eye flight back so I only got in this morning. We went totally crazy with the vanity shots on Hollywood Blvd. Loved it!...Anywho, I love the landscaping in LA! I love that you can see the hills and mountains all around even in the city! Totally awesome. It made Michigan seem so flat and boring from the plane. There's just too many people though. It looks like the houses are almost ontop of each other in some places but it has a very homey feel! Oh and it is a shopper's paradise too! Designer stuff and knock-offs!...too much! I love the blend of so many ethnic groups. It kind of reminds me of London a little bit. There's so much in my head that I want to put on here but I have to sit down and think it through. I need to be as articulate as I can be. we took lots of pictures!...Do I hear vanity!?...yeah but it was great!

cool

I was feeling pretty sexy today! Hubby took me out on a date. We haven't been on one in a little while. Dinner and a movie is always great! It was pretty sweet! We got all dressed up and stuff. He was looking pretty hot if I must say so maself.;)Anywho, I loved it. Things are looking pretty great too on the immigration side. God really is good.

I learned yesterday that "We cannot know the heart of God unless we have a heart for God." Sometimes I get a little confused with my thoughts about God but I think that's when I know I've taken it too far. I don't know what to make of Oprah's and Eckhart Tolle's whole teaching. All I can say is, I'm glad I didn't buy the book or join in the class. It just all seems too wierd to me. A lot of things seem to be twisted and I just don't know what to make of it. It feels like a new age teaching but if it is helping people to be better I guess it can't be all bad right? Oh well...

Did I tell you I love Baffour? If you wondering who that is...it's ma hubby;)he ain' t perfect but he's just right for me. We all can't be perfect:) He does little things that make me really happy and he doesn't follow any crowd or try to conform to anything and its awesome! I am thankful for that! He is quiet sometimes but he stands up for what he believes in. He makes me a better person because he always encourages me to keep a rein on my tongue.(It can be very difficult for me to do that especially when I am all passionate about an issue) I could go on but you don't want to hear all that. I could start preaching up in here!

I am not sleepy at all. I hope this California trip becomes a reality. Will be cool...Peace and hair grease! and peace in the Middle East!

ADDICT?

So I have finally come to the conclusion that I am a sucker for fashion. I am not necessarily trendy but I love to put whatever I feel good in together and it is a pleasure to hear people comment on how they look. Am I conceited and self absorbed then? I don't think so. Anyways, I have also come to the conclusion that:
1. I am a night owl
2. I am addicted to spicy/slightly salty food
3. I kind of enjoy soda/pop when it is available but I can overdose on water on certain days!
4. I am beginning to care too much about my body since I am technically sharing it with someone but I acknowledge that it is because I want that person(precious hubby) to appreciate it as much as I do.
5. I don't obsess about calories like most Americans do
6. I love reality TV... (bad habit!...it's got to go soon!)
7. I need to read more and write more poetry like I used to
8. I can actually come off as really quiet and shy!(outrageous!)
9. I do not care about some friends as much as I do and I need to work on it
10. I can be very legalistic
11. I sometimes care too much about what people think
12. I love some of my friends a lot and wish they were actually family
13. I am passionate about my family
14. I love Pina Coladas with no Banana:)
15. Banku is a weakness...add some grilled tilapia and its over!
16. I think about God and what He means to me a lot...constantly
17. I hate lies, being lied to, hypocrites and even the slightest form of deception is very distasteful to me
18. I am not perfect but I don't wallow in my imperfections
19. Infact I believe I am very special to God in a way that most people won't get
20. I am tired but not very sleepy right now... this shd go in my "about me" section