Forget Me Not

I began to wallow in this deep dark feeling
I blamed, I cursed, I saw no end
No silver lining, no light at the end of the tunnel
If it was there, I sure was missing it
Probably because I was wallowing in this deep dark feeling

I always thought I was one to come out of it
Unscathed or perhaps with a few scars to show
I didn't think I would be the walking advertisement,
The very poster child of this ingratitude
An ingrate in the making, as if nothing good had ever happened to me

I felt overtaken, overshadowed by my unbelief
Then I begun to see a glimmer of hope
Out of the darkness came my light
Aha! what a little hopeful thought can do
My heart felt free from and my spirit begun to soar

Again I begun to remember all that He said;
I will never leave you nor forsake you
Do not be consumed by anxiety
Each day has enough worry of it's own
Baby steps, one day at a time

Now I am not wallowing
There are days when those fleeting thoughts intrude
There are sunny days dotted with clouds overhead
But I will not wallow in that place
I am not alone, He's there and He's not going away!

Stuck On You

I must confess that I am going through a period of writer's block again. I have run out of things to share with my readers and it really bothers me to no end :-? Sorry folks! I think my problem is that I do not want to disappoint myself with mediocre and offensive writing. Anybody going through a moment like this?

The past week was pretty depressing for me and I finally fell completely apart a couple days ago after talking to my dad. He is absolutely the sweetest person and he always speaks encouraging and affirmative words to me. It made me sad to look at people's photos and see them together with their families. A part of me longed for that period in my life when my whole family was together and the nostalgia just overwhelmed me.

I feel a lot better now but as I wistfully wished for better family connections, it made me realize that I missed being in close proximity to my "friends" as well. Distance and different experiences have drawn some of us apart but if you have been a friend to me in the past or presently, thank you! It does mean the world to me :) Have a great week y'all!

Wonder

On track, off track
Somewhere in between
Choices, engagements
Plans to be made
Decisions arrived at without much thought
Right ones, wrong ones
The die is cast
Any more options?
How will events proceed?
I know not, but I can not
Forget who's in it with me
Never alone, anxiety relieved
Standing here in and on His promises

My Ransom

In Christ alone, who took on flesh, fullness of God in helpless Babe!This gift of love and righteousness, scorned by the ones He came to save.‘Til on the cross as Jesus died, the wrath of God was satisfied.For ev’ry sin on Him was laid; here in the death of Christ I live.

It's that time of the year again and I am remembering the turmoil that Christ must have endured inwardly in coming to the decision to die for my ransom. It gets me every time I think about it. This single act in history holds so much mystery to it and I am drawn to it like a moth to a flame! Thank you Jesus for dying in my place. Thank you that the chastisement that brought me peace was laid upon you!

Easter is not about candy :p Have a reflective weekend on the sweetness of His grace!

gossip, kokonsa, chisme ...

... Gossip is an evil thing, much unhappiness it brings. If you can't say something nice, don't talk at all is my advice ... (Not sure who the original author is)

I learned the words of this chorus back in Junior high and I still remember it to this day. It really changed my outlook on a lot of so called "discussions". One of my friend's status on facebook the other day was "if you stay long enough to hear negative and malicious things about someone, what makes you think the same won't be going on behind you?

I don't want to focus on the malicious aspect of gossip alone. I realize that by making the previous statement it implies that some aspect of gossip is good. Is that true at all? Does it mean then that if what is being said is "nice", then it is alright? Hmmm, just wondering.

stuff that drive me nuts!

The week has just begun and already I feel like the weight of the world is resting on my tiny shoulders. I am not going through anything per se but I have just heard bad news from a couple friends, some random strangers and sometimes you can't help but share in the burden of others. But again, I refuse to let that keep me from screaming and shouting "Thank You, Jesus" for your loving kindness and for your steadfast love!

I am once again reminded of God's love just as the Psalmist(David) wrote in Psalm 124. I suppose at times it is very difficult to accept what is and continue to give thanks as well but how soon we forget about all the other good things that have come our way. Some of us have developed a complex because we think we are entitled to "good-ness" in life and others deserve what they get. Who the heck are we to think that way?

I pray each of us will be reminded of God's grace through this week when we are tempted to lament and cuss under our breadth when we feel like life has been unfair in one way or the other. God Bless!

PEACE

I have been pondering over Psalm 23 today and thought about the content of this email that circulated a while ago and figured I would share with y'all.

THE 23RD PSALM BROKEN DOWN


The Lord is my Shepherd ~ Relationship

I shall not want ~ Provision

He maketh me to lie down in green pastures ~ Comfort

He leadeth me beside still waters ~ Peace

He restoreth my soul ~ Healing

He leadeth me in the paths of righteousness ~ Guidance

For His name sake ~ Purpose

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death ~ Trials & Testing

I will fear no evil ~ Protection

For thou art with me ~ Faithfulness

Thy rod and thy staff they comfort me ~ Assurance

Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies ~ Deliverance

Thou anointest my head with oil ~ Consecration

My cup runneth over ~ Abundance

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life ~ Grace

And I will dwell in the house of the Lord ~ Security

Forever ~ Eternity

Can you imagine sitting in the presence of your enemies while enjoying a good meal in comfort? I think the Psalmist painted this vivid picture to depict God's providence and also his(David's) trust in the promises of God that He would be with Him no matter what. It gives me such great peace to know that such an awesome God cares for me!

VERSATILE & STYLISH BLOGGER AWARD

I got this award a little while ago from prettykay (Thanks girl!) and I guess I missed passing it on. If you're reading this you're tagged. The rule is to say 7 things about yourself which I think I have done in two previous posts but I could do it again :-)

1. I'm a great wife if I do say so myself. (You better agree Honey!) hehe
2. I am also a girly girl and make no apologies for it. (Yeah I love pinks, purples, blues, shoes, getting my hair did, make-up, dresses, shopping etc). Why would I deny I'm a girl? ha!
3. People always guess I'm between 18-23! Very fluttering!
4.I love life!
5. I wish I were more passionate about my faith than people see. I love Jesus with a passion and I am unapologetically christian!
6. I love being a nurse but I'm not sure if I love my current job
7. I believe I am meant for greatness and I am still in the process of letting that manifest in my life :-)

shoppers paradise

So I went shopping the other day for long spring-y/summer-y dresses and came across a very pretty grayish/pewter/ash colored dress that caught my eye right away. For some unknown reason, I always look at the tag to see where it is made and before even checking out the fabric care. We all know it sucks to buy that dress which requires dry cleaning when you have no intention of dry cleaning it.

Anyways, imagine my surprise when I realized the dress was made in (drum rolls please...) KENYA! I wanted to scream "I am African and this dress right here is from my continent, y'all. Booyah". I know that's a little extreme but can you imagine going into a shop like Charming Charlie and finding a dress made in Kenya? It just made my entire day! I'll be sure to put a photo up when I wear! Looking forward to the day when I find made in Ghana stuff being sold commercially in American shops. Now that will be epic!

What is the ratio?

Today as I waited to give report before leaving work, a certain someone showed up lamenting about budget cuts and how Teachers are losing their jobs. I was very sad and a little amused at the same time. I think Teachers deserve better and should not have to lose their jobs in order for someone's budget quota to be met but the thing is, a lot of people suffer this kind of injustice in their owrk place day in and day out.

The said person kept going on and on about how they want teachers to teach a class of 60 kids! Now I had to pause and munch on this for a minute because growing up, some of my classes were bigger than 60 and some of theses folks from these classess of 60 are some of the most brilliant people I have ever met. She went on to talk about how the level of education will drop etc. Maybe the so called developed countries can learn a thing or two from the "developing" countries when it comes to what makes these huge classes work. Perhaps because of the large sizes, no one has the time to lable us as bipolar, ADD, ADHD and whatever alphabets there are and so we are saved from the stigma at such an early age.

I have not conducted any research into how the student teacher ratio affects the learning habits or the intellect of young minds yet but if all humans are considered "almost" equal, then dear readers, as a person from the so called "developing" country, I have been done a great disservice and my education has surely been in vain. Maybe it did teach me to pay better attention in class so that I would not be lost in the crowd. Perhaps it did teach me a thing or two about disciplining myself and holding myself to a certain standard so that I do not fall into the bottom third or two thirds of the class.

I am not saying that the workload is easy or that it is justifiable to put these teachers in these situations. I am just peeved that anyone can suggest that a teachers ability to motivate or encourage students to learn will diminish depending on the class size. Oh well, once again, my opinion ;p